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language spelling and memorisation-dumb
So this incident happened a long time ago in school, but it still happens with me once in a
while here and there. I've read a lot of resources and also I've realized it happens with me is
that we tend to do a lot of sight reading. I tend to do a lot of that. I would memorize a lot of
of a lot of the spellings instead of learning to build them with sounds because I was never
able to like break down sounds and understand what's happening. So it was really
confusing for me. And form each sound to form a word with different letters. So instead I
would just memorize the spellings of it and I was not an I'm not a native English speaker
and I went to an English medium school, but I had the same issue across different
languages. It's not specific to English. But yeah, let's see how it looks like when it happens.
And this is one of the incidents of me looking at my own test paper and seeing what has
happened. So let's see what happens when I look at my test paper and we kind of see this
kind of problem coming up so. I think this is in one of the fifth standard of 6th standard like
6th grade. I do not remember the you can if you can see the paper. Everything looks great
and to written down nicely neat and everything and you can see the spellings of
circumstances. Investment is all written perfectly, there's no. error there But as soon as
you look at the smaller spellings like the spelling accept It. Is wrong and it's been marked
red. And then when when my mother looks at the paper and she's like, why, what is
happening? What happened? Why can you not write such an easy word and lose a mark
there or like lose? Marks in totality. So I was I was starting to feel what's happening. I I felt
quite stupid. I was like, I don't know what happened. I never understood what would
happen. I I was like, I forgot the spelling. I don't know. I couldn't distinguish the sounds and
felt quite shameful. I know this is. Quite crazy. I don't know how to even explain. Was very
embarrassing. Felt quite silly that how I'm able to write like difficult spellings, can't write
simple spellings and sometimes there were times that my mom would get really frustrated
by me and felt helpless as well and I would get beaten up also. Uh. In that situation, and I
would not know what to do, how to help myself felt very discouraged and confused with my
own capabilities in that age, and I I still feel quite insecure about my reading writing skills. I
keep feeling that I wish I knew that I could have helped myself better earlier. And
understood that why is this happening now? I totally get it and retrospection. That joining
sounds and understanding to read sounds were problematic. Didn't have strategies to
have learned it better, so adoption to like memorization was something that happened
naturally. And yeah, this was quite painful. I can understand. And you can also feel it that
you feel quite helpless. That's what I felt a lot. But feeling stupid. Dumb. Is something that
it's still there in me. It hasn't gone away so. Yeah, they are, like, really deep feelings that
tend to still come up and still these things happen with me. But this was one incident as a
child. I remember that happened very vaguely.
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